Memories
leave a bad taste in my mouth
That
tequila went down so smooth long ago
But
leaves a bitter odor on my lips this morning
And a
raging creature pounding in my head
The
ghost of you is everywhere
You’re
voice rides along the ocean breeze
Brushing
my face softly, caressing my poor soul
It’s
not the salt in my eyes that triggers a tear
You
cut my hair like Samson’s
And
no one could doubt you improved me
You
made me your own, but without a column
What
am I suppose to hold onto?
Maybe
I shouldn’t have told you anything
For
you’d rather the history books forget
But I
can’t destroy the memories, I am weak
Clinging
only to the wind and empty sheets
Happy Sunday erryone! Hope you're ready for Monday (cuz I'm totally not, lol oops).
For a lot of people, especially college students, going home is the best thing in the world. And yeah I can agree it's pretty great, I love seeing my mom and sister, and my dad too. They are all so wonderful and supportive and I couldn't get through a day without thinking about them. Recent days have been really stressful and calling my mom and sis really helped. My friends too. I miss them to death and I can't wait until summer break to go and see them. There's just a lot of people I need back in my life who are miles away. There's one person specifically that I haven't seen since Christmas break and it's driving me insane. I'm glad I'll get to see them in, like, 5 weeks I think though.
But there are, how to put this, bad memories in that house. My room specifically. I hate my room because that's where I went throughout my middle school and high school life when I felt lonely and sad and depressed and anxious. And now it's as if the walls have absorbed that and are now emanating it.
I've always found the story of Samson really interesting. As a kid I remember learning that he couldn't cut his hair or have wine or else he'd lose his strength. I think it's actually cut his hair and women? I don't know, there are a lot of variations. The main point is the hair. According to scriptures, a temptress named Delilah seduced him and cut his hair causing him to lose all of his powers. His weakness was women and he couldn't see the trap that had been laid for him so that he couldn't destroy the columns or something like that (Idk the story 100%).
But let's think about that. I think all adults, at least men (some ladies), have an affinity for wine and women. And it seems to me that that is what adulthood is about, or at least it plays a significant roll. It also means responsibility, accountability, and other things but I want to save this theme for another post. God gave Samson strength and told him the parameters, but what is a meer mortal to God? I don't care if you're athiest or not, but gods do not fall to pressure, they just don't. Humans do: they are imperfect. Just because they are created to God's image, doesn't mean that they perform the same actions. Gonna throw some science at this situation and say just because they have the same genotype doesn't mean they have the same phenotype.
Anyway, Samson told Delilah that his weakness was hair and she cut it.
There's a song called "Samson" by Regina Spektor (aka one of the best artists in my opinion). Here are part of the lyrics:
Oh I cut his hair myself one night
A pair of dull scissors in the yellow light
And he told me that I'd done alright
And kissed me 'til the mornin' light, the mornin' light
...
Oh, we couldn't bring the columns down
Yeah we couldn't destroy a single one
And the history books forgot about us
And the bible didn't mention us, not even once
You are my sweetest downfall
I loved you first
It is apparent that the songs is sung by Delilah. But it is not sung by a temptress. It is not sung by an evil women. They seem to have a relationship, they seem to love each other through this. And he doesn't seem to care that his hair has been cut. He likes it. He doesn't want the responsibility to have God-like strength. He wants to be human, he wants to have Delilah, and is that so terrible?
Another song is Hallelujah (where the best version, again my opinion, is the one by Jeff Buckley) where he sings,
But remember when I moved in you
And the holy dove was moving too
And every breath we drew was Hallelujah.
Every breath they drew was Hallelujah. That sounds heavenly, that sounds rejoicing. There's nothing wrong in loving someone and loving someone so much that you'd give up anything to be with them, including a God-given gift. But this poem, the one I wrote forever ago before this rant happened, is about how, yes, I let someone cut my hair (metaphorically and physically-ish) and yeah, I came to actually prefer it. I didn't mind that they changed me in fact I like to think that they made me a better person, a stronger person than before. Maybe Samson felt that way too, that Delilah made him a better person. It's when she left him that he lost his strength.
So this has turned into analyzing a biblical story so I'm going to stop now. But please, let me know what you think, of the poem or the analysis in the comment section.
I hope you all have a great week and I'll post again soon-ish. (I'll try not to make it so long next time).
Godspeed. ~Sarah
